Trusting the Process
Updated: Mar 20
I have to admit, it felt a little strange not going to work yesterday. My social media platforms were full of first-day-of-school posts and photos, and a part of me felt as though I was missing out… but then I thought about how I can sleep in, go to the bathroom whenever I want (which is quite frequently nowadays), run errands and get everything done around the house… so the feeling was somewhat temporary. I suppose most of it is due to the fact that I’m in a transitional phase: still pregnant (not for long!), and wanting to get back into a more structured routine.
In the words of Tom Petty, “the waiting is the hardest part“. I’m willing to bet that he was not singing about waiting for a baby, but those words hold true for me right now. My estimated due date is in six days (September 10th), and that’s all it is… an estimate. We did a ‘guess the due date’ calendar at my baby shower, and friends/family members have been eagerly awaiting news for several days now. Even Jasper seems to be waiting for his new friend. He’s certainly enjoying all of the new stuff.
Although I estimated Baby Capallo’s arrival to be a few days late, now I am feeling the pressure (literally and figuratively), of getting this show on the road.
However, today I got a sign. I saw a praying mantis hanging out on our front window. We’ve had our share of praying mantises each year, but this is the first one I have seen in a while. I’m a big believer in symbolism, especially as it pertains to nature. Some of the symbolic qualities associated with a praying mantis include patience, peace, awareness, and intuition. Sure, I have been trying out different methods of ‘naturally inducing labor’ at home, but I’m using my due date as an indicator of whether or not I need medical intervention. I’d like to keep the praying mantis qualities in my mind as a reminder to trust the process.